Omens

Wednesday, September 28, 2005

Ah, it is always a strange occurrence when my life seems to flow like a movie plot complete with foreshadowing.

This independent study of mine has been a royal pain. It has been one obstacle after another:
1. Teacher can't remember me
2. Teacher doesn't show up for appointments
3. Teacher does not fill out paperwork correctly and I will most likely not receive credit if this is not remedied soon
4. Teacher leaves because of illness with the promise of returning, paper work has yet to be completed
5. Teacher will not be returning due to illness

On top off all of this, I begin worrying if I will even be able to complete the one mammoth assignment regardless of technicalities.

All omens seem to be pointing to "give up, this is so not worth it". On the other hand, isn't an accomplishment all the more savory when completed in the face of opposition? Yes, yes it is.

I will succeed!!! Already, within an hour of hearing the awful news of my first teachers untimely illness and perpetual absence, I have found a second and hopefully better teacher, Dr. Lanning, who not only is willing to sponsor my class, he also remembers who I am and is more lenient to boot!

Dare I speak to soon?

I can do this!!! Go Nina GO!!!

Narcissism

Sunday, September 18, 2005

Let's take some time to think about me for a minute. (this is of course a blogspot just for little ol' me after all... and only me. hee hee)
I love me. I think I am the coolest person ever. I do not, however, expect that everyone will love me just as much as I do. This is a big duh. Some people you just don't like and I'm cool with that.

Hence: I do not have self esteem issues!!!

Allow me to illustrate by telling some very famous Nina Quotes:
"I ROCK!"
"I am so cool! I just did ____ and I'm so proud of myself. Go me!"
"I am the coolest person I know. I am so interesting! I love listening to me talk!"
(And here is the best one ever:)
"Everywhere you are, that's where you'll be'. Well that must mean that you should be content with where you are otherwise you'll never be happy anywhere....Well, that's all well and good but I think I'll take it to the Nina level. What that really means is that I rock. I rock so much, that everywhere I am is automatically ten times better than anywhere else just because I am there."

Now, don't get me wrong, for the most part this is a little bit of a joke. I don't go around looking in the mirror loving myself 24/7. I just really like who I am. I think I'm a good person. I have my flaws and am always up for improving on them. I'm not perfect....But that just makes me cooler ;)
(but then the question remains, who doesn't think they are a good person?)

But I do not have self esteem issues!!

In the end, I'm on cloud nine. Just wait when I'm really low and start talking about how I can't do anything right.

Nose Picking: When a Tissue Just Isn't Enough

Here is an excerpt from an email I sent to Jessica yesterday:

[Begin Email]
Subject: Must vent

So here's what happened. Last year, I went to James's Birthday. James is the guy in my Japanese class who is doing JET with me. Well, at this birthday there was one lone black dude with fro-y hair... I really don't remember anything besides his hair really. I found out through this experience though, that his name is David.

And that was it. The end of it. Then, about a week ago, I was at this coffee house with Dan and the gang when this guy stops by because he was working the night shift at Applebees which is in the same complex. This big, hot, well groomed, black man also goes by the name David. You can see where this is going. So two days later, I was talking to Dan and he brings up the name David and how he's looking for a girlfriend. I make it very clear that I think David is hot as hell. Dan says, oh the guy with the hair? I think for two seconds, hair? Yes David had hair, he wasn't bald right? Of course he had hair. So I say yes, that David. And then we start discussing where we both know these David's from. Dan says "the guy at James birthday" I say, "that's the same guy?" Dan says, "I don't know that many black people." And I leave it at that.

David just called.
D - we should get together what are you doing Saturday
N - oh I have plans, what are you doing tonight
D - I'm working the night shift
N - oh at Applebee's?
D- No, I don't work at Applebees....You know there are two David's right?
I know this now, and so does he.

I don't need a boyfriend this badly. I'm done.

Thanks for listening, I'm going to crawl in a hole now and die.

Love,
Nina
[End Email]

When David said, "Applebees? No, I don't work at an Applebees." That is when I knew. That is when I knew that I hated Dan.

I mean, come on! Dan says he doesn't have very many Black friends! But he does! He has three. Three black friends. Three black male friends. Three black male friends that all go by the name "DAVID".

What are the odds (ToT)

For the love of Japan

Friday, September 16, 2005

Things finally seem to be looking up, dare I speak too soon. Maybe the weather has changed from being so rainy and generally crappy to more heat and humidity. Ahhh just the way it should be here in sweltering Florida.

I have new found motivation to continue researching my 40 page paper. Everyone has been blown away that I'm actually going to do this. They want me to call it a thesis, graduates work, or at least honors credit. But no, I am going to only get 3 glorious credits and be done with it. But I'll be very proud of myself and I must say this is a first for me. But honestly, I am proud of myself and that's really all I need...For once. I must be growing up!

As for my checklist of things to get done for the JET application, I now have absolutely everything except a completed essay. I have about two paragraphs left to write to create a full two pages. But I don't know what else to write! I almost started asskissing but that's exactly what it sounded like so I guess it wasn't the best approach. It was something like: I want to rid all of Japan of it's stereotypes of Americans that they see on MTV... uh no. To an extent I really do want to do something like that, but I just don't want to state it like that. For example, in every anime that has an American in it, the men are cowboys or fat and loud and the women are blond busty and loud as well. Though I can't keep them from confirming that all American's are loud (especially in comparison to themselves) I can let them see that not all American women are big and busty. Right on!! *sobs*

Now it seems that the application for JET won't be out until October. WTF?!?! It doesn't matter. I'll have everything ready by the time it does come out and it'll be in the mail the instant I get my grubby little hands on it.

Sinead O'conner

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

That's IT! I'm going to cut off all of my hair and look like THIS: Oh wait, did that in 6th grade. It looked bad then and it looks even worse now since we aren't in the 90's anymore. Well shoot.
(btw, don't my sister and grandma look cute? This is probably sometime in December '95. We have all since, changed eyewear.)
Maybe I'll do something more like this (boobs included): Either way, I want something different. I stared at the back of this girls head in the middle of my Magic, Ritual, and Belief class (at 7:30 am!) And I noticed that not only does she have curly hair but lo and behold it's not all one length. Go figure. I asked her where she gets her hair done (because that's whatcha do) and she gave me the address for this place: http://mitchellwade.com/1024.html
It just screams snobby and I know it'll be pricey. But her hair looked so good!! What to do, what to do...

We knew this would happen sometime

Tuesday, September 13, 2005

That's right, I've started a blog. Let's hope I can keep it cute and keep it updated! .... but mostly cute. Here's a pic of me! Because we all need a little fanservice sometime.
'94 was a good year for me (^_~)b